nOCD, treatment on-the-go for those with OCD

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nOCD: Self Treatment for Those with OCD

Hi again everyone, I want to talk to you all about an app, nOCD. A couple months ago, the folks at nOCD reached out to me and asked if I would be interested in spreading awareness for their self-therapy app. While I myself do not have OCD, I am always here to support those spreading mental health awareness and accessibility to treatment. So, what is nOCD?

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Snapped out, QUICK!

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Photo by Aaron Burden on Unsplash

Friday

Honestly, so weird. That mood really snapped out QUICK. I literally felt it lifted from my body. I feel focused and like I need to get back into goals. Want to get back more into blogging, organizing my things for that, marketing my posts, getting what I need to get done at work in order. So much.

It was so nice to just come home and relax. Well, relax as much as I could.

See related: The Visiting Ladybug | Blessings, or Whatever You Want To Call Them

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The Visiting Ladybug

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Photo by Benjamin Balázs on Unsplash

Wednesday

Writing my reflection of yesterday and thinking of two things – how I recognize changes in my depression and anxiety (increased irritability, catastrophizing, snowballing, teeth clenching, stomach aches, decreased appetite, persistent sleepiness) and also the fact that lots of job related angst is due to men not feeling like I’m doing my best.

I am trying to keep in mind that it has only been a month (not even a full one yet, so I should chill the fuck out a little. That’s the wild thing though, as clearly as I know all of this…it STILL doesn’t change anything for me. That has been an interesting change in dealing with my mental health in the last two years or so. I would say that I’ve always been pretty in tune with my emotions and the like, but I would say that my emotional intelligence has increased very much. BUT, that awareness is weird. I am acutely aware of how I’m feeling and why at all times, and can rationalize these things pretty well, but for some reason can’t fix them, or am not sure how to. Maybe it’s because it all comes down to  self worth and that is not something one just “fixes.”

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Cesspool of “meh.”

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Tuesday

Headed to work work, and I have my sneakers.

I was ready and prepared to make up for yesterday, but wasn’t aware of the difference between the morning and afternoon schedules for the shuttle to transport me to my other site for the day. Thus? I once again ended up staying up at my home base. I was able to carry out the job duty required of me with that respect, but not as well as I would have hoped. That definitely set me in a funk, exacerbating whatever this muck of a mood is that has been plaguing me for maybe two weeks now.

Over the course of the day, this mood persisted. I tried to really sit down and consider why I am feeling this way, and was able to come up with this:

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5 Obstacles Introverted/Anxious Students Face Making Change

5 Obstacles

Note: I wrote this post in January, mid-trough point in depression cycle. Only now getting around to posting it, sorryyyyyy. I also want to preface this by saying that I do not consider myself to be an activists. There is still a lot of unlearning I need to do and research I need to do. Also, I don't think that I am actually doing or have done anything substantial. This post was brainstormed in the middle of my fellowship while I was working on my project, and I was trying to organize thoughts I had during that time.

I have been trying to be more vocal in terms of trying to contribute to and reform my campus, but there are a few pesky problems that my introversion, anxiety, and depression cause from time to time.

1. Is this really a problem? Or am I over-analyzing (like I do everything else).

With anxiety, there comes a tendency to over-analyze situations. I spent the first three years of my college career convinced I was going crazy because I thought no one else noticed the things I did. Sometimes, I still feel this way, even though I know there are others who feel the same way.

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B*tch You Don’t Love Yourself! 5 Signs You Are Not Being Kind To Yourself

Self-love and self-care are terms that are thrown around a lot these days. They’re more than taking a bubble bath when you’re feeling stressed, or listening to your favorite song.   These are processes that one should regularly engage in – making conscious efforts to be present and kind to the self. Personally, I know I could do a lot better with practicing self-love and self-care, as I am not nice to myself in the slightest (so I’ve been told).

Are you being unkind to yourself? Read 5 signs below, or watch the video above to find out!

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5 Facts About Me

In the spirit of shaking things up a bit, here are 5 facts about me!

5 Facts About Me

I’m an INFJ

INFJs tend to be sensitive, quiet leaders with a great depth of personality. They are intricately, deeply woven, quilt-like, mysterious, highly complex, and often puzzling, even to themselves. They have an orderly view toward the world but are internally arranged in a complex way that only they can understand. Abstract in communicating, they live in a world of hidden meanings and possibilities. With a natural affinity for art, INFJs tend to be creative and easily inspired, yet they may also do well in the sciences, aided by their intuition.

NFJs are believed to adapt easily in social situations due to their complex understanding of an individual’s motivations; however, they are true introverts. INFJs are private individuals who prefer to exercise their influence behind the scenes. Though they are very independent, INFJs are intensely interested in the well-being of others. INFJs prefer one-on-one relationships to large groups. Sensitive and complex, they are adept at understanding complicated issues and driven to resolve differences in a cooperative and creative manner. – source

I love the colour blue (even though everything on this site is green)

It is often associated with depth and stability.

Blue is strongly associated with tranquility and calmness.

Light blue is associated with health, healing, tranquility, understanding, and softness.
Dark blue represents knowledge, power, integrity, and seriousness. – source

Favourite animal is an elephant 

The strength of the elephant is tremendous. No other animal on land can match the elephant. It knows its own strength, and confidently strides across the plains aware of its power. It also uses wisdom, and is very intelligent, and thinks things through to all of its conclusions. – source

Tea > coffee

Tea People: When people ask you what you’re planning on doing with your life, you generally curl up into a small ball à la Roly Poly and cry softly to yourself. You have way too many books you plan on reading — and Tumblr posts you plan on reblogging — to consider things in terms of “career.” You are not really upwardly mobile, professionally speaking, but that’s okay. You’re just figuring things out. You’ll get to it. It will be fine. – source (I thought this was so fitting for this semester haha)

 

I am a Scorpio through & through 

I just want to preface anything I put below by saying I don’t take these things to heart. I do think that the things they write about Scorpio’s are funny at times though. But, anyway…

Personality

Beneath a controlled, cool exterior beats the heart of the deeply intense Scorpio. Passionate, penetrating, and determined, this sign will probe until they reach the truth. The Scorpio may not speak volumes or show emotions readily, yet rest assured there’s an enormous amount of activity happening beneath the surface. Excellent leaders, Scorpions are always aware. When it comes to resourcefulness, this sign comes out ahead. – source

Do any of these things ring true for you? Tell me a bit about yourselves! Let me know on social media 🙂

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-Court

I Sabotaged My College Experience?

I feel like a fraud. I shouldn’t give anyone college advice. I was so enveloped in my depression and anxiety freshman-junior year, I didn’t really do too much. Yeah there were a couple parties sprinkled into my college experience, a few games here and there, and even a few friends. However, I spent most of my time working, in class, or at home studying, sleeping, or streaming movies and TV.

I often wonder if I didn’t like my school because of the culture, or if I wasn’t able to enjoy it because, again, I was struggling. I talked myself out of things as I often do, I withdrew mentally and emotionally, and I tortured my mind, body, and soul.

As I head into my senior year, I am more convinced that there was an interplay between these two: I came into college already dealing with depression, but environmental factors put it into a pressure cooker and I cracked.

But, after much rambling, back to the question posed in the title: yes and no. Yes, there are many ways I could have changed the outcome of these years. But, I am a firm believer (even though I forget many times) that things work themselves out. Yeah there are plenty of times I want to kick myself in the mouth for not doing x, or going to this meeting, or applying for this thing, etc, there are many reasons I am thankful for these hard times.

Yes, I may have “missed out” on some opportunities, or took longer to reach certain decisions. Yes, I might have had a better social experience if I went to another school on my list, or if I had listened to myself and followed through with transferring. But no, I don’t think I sabotaged anything. This semester aloneI’ve been able to intern/shadow in a Neurology clinic, work with an amazing human rights organization, come closer to solidifying my future career plans, gotten to speak at the U.N., and so much more. Yeah, I wish things could have gone a bit differently, but I’m so happy with the direction life is taking.

For my seniors out there, how are you feeling about your college experiences (reflecting)?

-Court

#GivingTuesday with Breakthrough U.S.!


Hey there everyone!

I mentioned very briefly in my September (or October) Favourites that I am participating in a fellowship with Breakthrough U.S. We are a human rights organization working to end gender based violence each and every day through culture change! I’m beyond grateful to have been granted such an opportunity, and very happy with the work I have been doing. I know in the Bloggersphere, we are often bombarded by links to companies and so on and so forth, so you may not be inclined to click this, however, I promise you this is worth it.

Tomorrow is #GivingTuesday, and in the post linked below, all Breakthrough is asking is that *you* share ideas for an action that can help create SAFE and INCLUSIVE spaces for college students across the country. Not hard at all, right? Start a discussion with your friends! Tag ’em into the post if you’d like! Share it! Most of all, don’t shy away from posting because you are embarrassed of an idea, or think that it is “stupid.” There’s power in words, and yours matter 😊

Check out the post here

Btw, not kidding when I say you should share. I spent my first 3 in college analyzing things on campus that I felt weren’t being handled properly, and that made students feel unwelcomed, but never thought I could do much to fix it. While it is proving to be a lot of hard work, working with, and sharing my ideas with Breakthrough has really helped me find my voice, and validate my observations. I have never felt as empowered to make on-ground change as I am now, and that is something I will always be thankful for. So, please don’t think your ideas are too small 💕

Have a great day!

-Court

3 Reminders For When You’re Feeling Like A Failure

On Feeling Like A Failure

“Always do your best. What you planted now, you will harvest later.”

– OG Mandino

This summer has been quite an experience as far as self-love. Part of that journey for me has been coming to terms with my path, and not letting my thoughts of success (or others thoughts) deter me from trying to carve out my future.

For millennials, and college students in particular, there is this immense amount of pressure to “have your life together” by the time you graduate. This pressure has prompted a couple of posts (which you can read here and here). To keep things frank, lately I’ve been feeling like a bit of a failure because of this notion. If you have been feeling this way due to school, or whatever else it may be, keep reading to see some of my tips + affirmations to keep you pushing through.

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