What I Ate This Week 1 (9/4 – 9/8)

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I am going to try to keep track of what I am eating and share them in case this is helpful to anyone. Cooking is fun to me, but I don’t like to do it (if that makes any sense). I also don’t have a super super abundance of time, so I like things that are quick and nutritious. If that is something you’re looking for as far as making food for the work week, this might be for you!

Yes, this is only 4 days. It’s easiest for me to try food related changes during my work week since that’s when I have the most structure. The weekend is kind of up for grabs. Since starting work, I have tried to bring my own lunch. There have been a few instances where I’ve had to purchase lunch in the cafeteria, but like I said, I mostly bring my own food. When I bring my lunch, it’s usually some combination of chicken and vegetables, so I’m usually just trying to find different ways to conjure that up. My personal struggle has been breakfast. I wake up at 4:30 AM, and arrive at work around 6:45 AM. I am usually sitting at my desk by 7:00 AM, and start my tasks for the day at. 7:30 AM. As per my job duties, I am usually on my feet from 7:30 AM until about 11:00 AM, and in between then I am not allowed to have food in the premises. Thus, it is very important that my breakfast is both nutritious and filling. I have been making sure to have filling breakfasts, but nutritious? Not so much. At least not to my standards.

Generally, I’ve fallen off of my no dairy train, and I haven’t been watching my bread/rice/cereal/etc intake all that well either. I am hoping to get back into that this week, and consume better breakfast options. With that in mind, here’s what I am eating this week for breakfast and lunch.

Disclaimer: I don’t really do cooking formally, so when I share things here they probably won’t have measurements or times. I just kind of whip things together and watch them cook until they’re done tbh.

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Blogger Recognition Award

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Behind the Schmile has easily become one of my favorite blogs to read in the space of a few months, so thank you so so so much for nominating me! I really appreciate it. If you haven’t already visited behingtheschmile.com, please do. I’ve featured some posts in my “Blog Blast” posts if you want to see some of my personal favorites.

See related: Blog Blast July 1st – 15th| Blog Blast July 15th – 31st

How did I get here you ask?

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Blog Blast August 2017 Part II

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I am really enjoying writing these 🙂 As I wrote in part 1 (link), this helps me revisit content that was very salient for me, especially if it resonated with me during a rough time. This also helps me to remember bloggers I really enjoy! I get inspired reading so many different views and genres of posts, and this has been helping to keep the ideas flowing. Here is the continuation of my August 2017 blog round-up!

See related: Blog Blast August 2017 Part I

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Blog Blast August 2017 Part I

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I have been trying to get back into engaging more with other blogs, as I became very narrow in my focus while trying to work on my own content again. Not supporting other bloggers/creators is one of the biggest mistakes you can make as a blogger….how do you expect to meet other people? Get inspired? Learn?

In an effort to keep myself in check with this, I started doing monthly blog round ups. I used to do them way back in the day when I first started my blog, but as usual, fell off.

See related: Blog Blast Aug 2015 Part I |Blog Blast Aug 2015

I re-vamped the series in July, especially after engaging with blogging groups and being exposed to many more blogs. This month, I am returning with a fresh list of posts for you to check out. The posts I feature are of course going to be those that speak to things I relate to, but I do hope you enjoy them as well! There are a lot of gems here 🙂

See related: Blog Blast July 1st – 15th | Blog Blast July 15th – 31st

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Snapped out, QUICK!

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Photo by Aaron Burden on Unsplash

Friday

Honestly, so weird. That mood really snapped out QUICK. I literally felt it lifted from my body. I feel focused and like I need to get back into goals. Want to get back more into blogging, organizing my things for that, marketing my posts, getting what I need to get done at work in order. So much.

It was so nice to just come home and relax. Well, relax as much as I could.

See related: The Visiting Ladybug | Blessings, or Whatever You Want To Call Them

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31 Days of Gratitude| August 30th & 31st

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Womp womp womp…..I didn’t finish 30 DOG in August 😦 It’s okay, only a couple of days out. I have lots of other content in between then to make up for it! I have been busy trying to get this site off the ground 🙂 So, the lateness is not in vain! How am I wrapping up my gratitude journal for the month of August? Read below to find out! Oh oh oh, before you do that….you can also check out some of my other posts that were published before this!

See related: Cesspool of “meh.” | What’s Wrong? | My First Time At A Gun Range!

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Blessings, or Whatever You Want To Call Them

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Thursday

Let’s try this again.

Today, I stayed in bed for an extra 20 minutes. I thought about how much I would like to just sit there and not do anything. I’m not entirely sure what’s getting me up going in the morning. I think today particularly was because it’s pay day. There’s only been one time so far where this has all gotten the better of me and I didn’t do anything, and that was sophomore year. I wouldn’t go to class, I wouldn’t bathe especially because I wasn’t doing anything, I wouldn’t eat. I’m nearly there. I don’t want to go to work, but think I don’t because of the outside perception of “wow, good job Court” for getting a job, and also anxiety being like “you’re just a lazy, entitled, bratty, worthless POS who can’t handle being an adult if you don’t go,” so I do. I’m practically not eating because my appetite has been non-existent for probably months now, but more lately I really just haven’t felt like eating. I bathe though, especially coming back from the city and because I’m moving. Otherwise, if I was stationary, in all honesty I would just like to lie in bed and not do anything.

Yesterday on my way home I got a response email from my preceptor from my senior year. It was nice, and really helped to dissipate negative feelings I was having. Just going to try to go into the days and do the best that I can, not saying that it makes me feel better or makes the situation any better, but hey.

I also got my music back on my phone. Long story short: due to storage optimization, all but my purchased music was erased from my phone, and all of it was un-downloaded from my device. As such, and with my slow service at the moment, i haven’t been able to listen to music which is something that at least temporarily relieves some negative feelings for me. So, I am sitting here typing this right now fairly happy that I am able to listen to some of my music again.

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31 Days of Gratitude| August 27th – 29th

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Bet ya thought I wasn’t going to post these for more days! Fooled ya! Lol, just kidding. I am going to finish these strong, and make sure that I have other content queued up. Consistency is key! But that aside, want to see what I am most grateful for on days 27 – 29? Read to find ouuuutttttt 🙂

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The Visiting Ladybug

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Photo by Benjamin Balázs on Unsplash

Wednesday

Writing my reflection of yesterday and thinking of two things – how I recognize changes in my depression and anxiety (increased irritability, catastrophizing, snowballing, teeth clenching, stomach aches, decreased appetite, persistent sleepiness) and also the fact that lots of job related angst is due to men not feeling like I’m doing my best.

I am trying to keep in mind that it has only been a month (not even a full one yet, so I should chill the fuck out a little. That’s the wild thing though, as clearly as I know all of this…it STILL doesn’t change anything for me. That has been an interesting change in dealing with my mental health in the last two years or so. I would say that I’ve always been pretty in tune with my emotions and the like, but I would say that my emotional intelligence has increased very much. BUT, that awareness is weird. I am acutely aware of how I’m feeling and why at all times, and can rationalize these things pretty well, but for some reason can’t fix them, or am not sure how to. Maybe it’s because it all comes down to  self worth and that is not something one just “fixes.”

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